Moving On

"Everyone can think of the one thing that would make life better for them. But people are not so quick to answer the second question: 'What are you doing to make that change come true?'."



10.6.11

With the biggest loser ending last week, I was faced with the decision to participate in the next round or not. At first I definitely knew I wanted to do it. I like the fact that it keeps me motivated and held accountable for my weigh ins and what not. But then I started to think about it more.



I'm really close to my goal and I pretty much lose 1 - 1.8 pounds a week. In the beginning I was losing 4, 5 or 6 pounds a week! It was easy for me to win and I loved that. Now that I barely lose anything a week, there's really no chance of me winning anymore. Not that that's the only thing that matters to me! That's not it all all. I just honestly don't want to spend $50 knowing that I definitely won't win again.



I also need to see how well I can do on my own, without the Biggest Loser holding me accountable. I will probably still weigh in at work, just because I've been going off of that scale this whole time, but my weigh ins won't be for some competition anymore.



I can't be thankful enough for the people at my work who decided to start up the Biggest Loser. It was honestly a life changing experience for me. I don't really know where I'd be if they had never done it!



It really wasn't just losing weight. I've fallen in love with fitness, I choose to eat healthier things (most of the time) now, I am doing things that I used to tell myself "I'll never be able to do that" and I'm loving every minute of it. I can't imagine ever going back to my old self, and I don't ever plan on doing so.



So, here's my first "Weigh In" after the Biggest Loser was over. I went in there, by myself, and weighed in. Obviously I'm not going to lie about my weight, because that would just be lying to myself. Here's what I got!



Previous Weight - 163



Current Weight - 161.6



Weight Lost - 1.4 Pounds



Total Weight Lost - 69.8 Pounds



Wow... so close to 70! I can taste it!!:) I shouldn't say that, considering I ate horribly this past weekend, I'll probably gain next time I weigh in! lol... I hope not! But we'll see!



My ultimate goal is 150. I can't believe I'm almost there. I used to dream of going to sleep and waking up skinny, and to be honest, that's kinda how this whole journey has felt! It's gone by way faster than I thought it would have, and sometimes I wonder if it is a dream! When I walk by a mirror and see myself, sometimes I have to do a double take. It's truly a great feeling. I just can't wait to get to 150!! I hope to be there by the end of the year!



Lately I've been kind of annoyed with people's attitudes towards my weight loss. The majority of people are super happy for me and they say I look great. But, there are a few people who seem to think I'm "anorexic." Really?? I'm sorry, but I don't believe 161 pounds at 5'5 is anorexic. And by the way, I do eat! Quite a bit actually. I wear medium shirts and size 11/13 jeans. I would not consider that anorexic.



I'm just in shock when some people have the nerve to say things like "Don't get too skinny!" "You're gonna look like a bobble head!" "You're wasting away" etc. etc. No, sorry... I actually busted my ass to get where I am. I'm not wasting away, I'm eating right and working out every day. Sorry that I want to be in the "healthy" BMI range! And it's also funny when people say "Oh my God, you're so skinny! Not that you were fat before, but wow! You look great" Ok, seriously, don't lie. I'm not stupid. Obviously if I'm skinny now, I was fat before! 231.4 pounds is FAT. And I'm not ashamed to say that. I called myself fat all the time. I know I was! So don't try to lie. Just say it!



Most of those comments I attribute to jealousy. Not to be cocky, but it's kind of obvious when you see the people making those kind of comments. But it doesn't bother me much. I know what I'm doing and I know that I'm not too skinny! So thanks haters:-)



Well, besides that, not much going on. Oh, yes, wait! I passed the CPAT! Woo hoo!! So happy I was able to accomplish that. It makes me feel like I can do anything now! Definitely one of the hardest things I've ever done!! I'm so glad it's over with! lol.



OMG... so I've gone to Lifetime Fitness with Sam and Caitlin two times now. We did Strictly Strength, Spinning and Kickboxing Interval. Such fun classes. I'm totally hooked and need to join ASAP. It's seriously the nicest gym ever and I HAVE to go there more!! I love it!:)



Ok, I'm done ranting. I'll try to update after I weigh myself on Thursday. Thanks to anyone who still reads this:) Love you guys!



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Anna