Still Going Strong

Hi guys. Just writing a blog because I felt like it. Not quite sure what to talk about, but I'll figure something out. I feel like there's something I need to say... but don't know how to get it out!

Remember how I said I wasn't going to weigh myself for a month? Still haven't! The scale is there in the basement, out there for me to see and everything, but I have NOT stepped on it at all, promise! It hasn't been too bad, honestly. Although as soon as I made that decision, I did feel myself ease up on my diet right away. I was a little more lenient, but that was just the first week. Now I'm being more strict. I haven't let up on my exercise though, that's for sure. I would like to do one whole week of exercising straight. No rest days! Maybe this week? We'll see!

I'm so excited to weigh in though. It's going to be so suspenseful! Anything could happen... gain, loss, stay the same. Who knows! But I really, really hope it's a good loss! That will assure me that I can do this on my own, without the motivation of The Biggest Loser helping me out!

So lately I've been noticing that when I'm sitting down for a while, really relaxed, maybe even with my feet up, that when I go to stand up, I get really lightheaded and sometimes see little stars. It's not a cool feeling. I've taken my pulse and blood pressure a few times recently and they are both pretty low. My pulse is usually 40-50 and my blood pressure is around 115/60ish. I like that my heart rate is so slow now, it's cool. But I wonder if that's causing me to feel lightheaded when I stand up. It's only slow because I work out so much now! Hmm... oh well, hopefully my body adjusts to and overcomes these new changes.

Halloween is coming up. It's officially on Monday, but we're doing the celebrating this Saturday. I love Halloween. Of course I liked it more when I was younger, because of the candy! I used to look forward to it so much. I loved dressing up and going out around the neighborhood. I wish I could still trick-or-treat. I really miss being a kid!

This year has probably made me feel the most grown up so far. I've done a lot of new things, and time has just been flying by so fast that it really makes me realize how quick I am going to grow old! It's really sad. I don't like to think about getting old, but it's inevitable! I'm starting to run out of things to look forward to. It used to be holidays, birthdays, turning 16 so I could drive, turning 18 so that I was an adult, turning 21 so I could drink, getting engaged, getting married... Now all that's left... having a baby! I see now why people have babies soon after getting married. Because you crave that new feeling. The excitement you get from having something to look forward to. But it all gets old eventually. I know that's kind of a crappy attitude to have on life, but it's just how I feel. I know that once I have kids, all I will look forward to is their milestones and living my life vicariously through them! *Sigh*

Speaking of kids... and don't get any thoughts (Rayna and Roch) but I'm just not ready for them! I used to think I wanted to have a baby RIGHT after getting married. Now I realized a few things.

1. We're not financially stable enough to afford a kid. My mom would say otherwise, because somehow she raised 5 kids and a million pets on only my Dad's income. I have no clue how, but I don't want to attempt it! Just trying to live off of our income's with roommates and 1 dog is hard enough! It's truly a scary feeling when you're not sure if you will be able to pay a certain bill each month! Adding a baby to the mix would not help!

2. I'm not ready. I know, I know... typical answer. But I honestly don't feel ready yet. I'm only 23. I know that's old compared to how young people used to be in the old days when they had kids, but to me, that's still young! There's just a lot of things I still want to do and experience before having kids. Nothing super amazing, like travelling or anything like that. But just the simple, little things in life that most of us take for granted. Sleeping in, staying up late, going out drinking, short notice trips, spur of the moment outings, grocery shopping, watching a movie, going to dinner, exercising (!!!!), running errands. Anything! Just being carefree is what I will miss and I don't want to feel like I'm missing out on things because of a baby. I don't want to regret my baby! Simple as that. Once you have a kid, the rest of your life is spent thinking about your kid, taking care of it, planning ahead for it, loving it... You're not just thinking of yourself anymore, and that's scary!

3. Probably something that seems greedy... but my body. Since I was fat for the majority of my childhood, teenage years and early adult life, I really felt held back. I rarely felt pretty. I never really experienced things the way I wanted to. It was like having a huge weight on my shoulders, literally. When you're fat, you just feel like an outcast. You get categorized, and treated differently than "normal" sized people. It's pretty unfair, but you just have to deal with it. The only benefit you get from being fat is getting to eat whatever you want.

While that is enjoyable, it's not worth it! Having to shop at specific stores... that sucks! I couldn't find cute boots because none would zip past my calves. Putting on boots in general was hard, putting on socks was hard, tying shoes, painting my toes, hard and hard! Walking up a flight of stairs, getting in and out of a car, going on amusement rides, going to the beach, sitting at a booth, anything! Doing any of those simple things is difficult when you're fat! And it sucks! But it didn't have to be that way, so I changed it. And being able to go from FAT to in shape, healthy, and a decent size is an amazing feeling! I couldn't be happier with myself and I never want to go back to that old me.

So back to my point. I'm REALLY enjoying my new body. Shopping at normal stores is awesome!! Not feeling self conscious is such a great feeling. So if I were to get pregnant now, I would feel that I didn't get enough time to enjoy all the benefits of my hard work and dedication. I would also be scared that I would gain a lot of weight and go back to my old habits. I would hope not! But I don't know for sure. When I DO get pregnant, I'm going to try my HARDEST to still eat right and keep exercising throughout my pregnancy. FOR SURE!

Somehow my blog just turned into me talking about why I don't want kids. Sorry, not sure how that happened. But now you know! I think I would like to have my first one by the time I'm 25 though... so we'll see!

Time to get back to work I suppose. So happy it's my last night, and I'm off for 4 days! Yay! Really excited to celebrate Halloween this weekend:) I hope you all have a fun and safe weekend! Thank you for reading... it encourages me a lot to keep doing what I'm doing!

<3Happy Halloween<3

Anna

Anniversary Weekend

Doesn't that look delicious? It was! It's stuffed french toast with whipped cream and strawberries from Founding Farmer's in Washington, DC. That's how we started off our Anniversary on Saturday morning. I really liked the place! Charlie got fried chicken with eggs and waffles, also very good! Another great thing was the mimosas! Wow! This was my first time having one... I loved them! So easy to drink:)

After our wonderful breakfast, we drove over to the National Crime and Punishment Museum. It was pretty cool! I read quite a bit, even though I said I didn't like the reading parts lol. There was some cool stuff to look at, like weapons and what not. My favorite part was the prison art work. One prisoner made an owl out of soap... loved it!! Some of the paintings were so awesome! They really have talent:)

We probably stayed at the museum for almost 3 hours, then headed over to Chinatown gallery place. I didn't know it was actually a mall, kind of. There's not too much in it, but it was neat. We decided to go to "Bar Louie" which was a nice place! It was pretty empty, which I liked. We ordered some appetizers and drinks. I got sangria, my favorite:) We hung out there for a little while, then headed to the hotel to check in!

We stayed at the "Washington Courts" hotel. It was really nice! When we booked the room, we made a comment that it was our anniversary, and they definitely acknowledged that! They wished us a happy anniversary and gave us a room with an amazing view of the Capitol! It was really cool:)

Once we got settled into the room, we decided to go back out to Union Station. It was really pretty in there! Lots of shops and stuff, but nothing that I really wanted to go to. After walking around there for a little while, I started to feel sick. I definitely attribute it to the fact that I ate so much terrible food and also had a few drinks! Once I took some Tum's, I felt 100% better! Thank goodness. I did NOT want to ruin our anniversary!

When we left Union Station, we stopped by "The Dublinger" bar and "Kelly's Irish Times" bar. They were kinda small and beat though, so we didn't stay long lol. They seemed really "local." We walked back to the hotel and got ready for dinner!

We had reservations for 8pm at "District ChopHouse and Brewery" Mmm! It was really good! They serve you cornbread at the beginning of the meal. We ordered spinach and artichoke dip for an appetizer. It was fantastic!! I got the 8 ounce filet mignon with cheddar mashed potatoes. Delish!! My steak was awesome!

When we left there, we were SO stuffed and tired!! We thought about going out to a bar, but we were just being so old and decided to stay at the hotel, watch some TV, and eat our wedding cake! It was a great ending to a perfect day:)

The cake didn't hold up too great in the freezer, color wise. But the actual cake itself tasted great!! It was still moist and delicious:) It was really nice to get an actual piece, considering I didn't even get a real piece at the wedding! lol. It was really good:)

I slept surprisingly well that night and woke up feeling great. We had to check out by noon, so we took showers and packed up:) Another anniversary perk was that they waived the $43 parking fee!! Thank goodness!! That's so expensive!

On our way home, I decided to be a little bad and get a McDonald's 4 piece nugget and a large fry! Bad me! Oh well... I decided to turn it into an anniversary weekend, rather than a day!! lol

It was such a nice day out, so I decided to invite my sisters over to come trail running with me! Rayna brought her dog, Chase, and I brought Chief. First we took them in the water to play... well, tried. Chase loves the water and was all in it! Chief on the other hand, not a huge fan of it! He never really got in, but him and Chase ran around together a whole bunch. It was really cute and I think they had fun!

After that, me and Roch ran together for the rest of the trail. Rayna and Charlie walked the dogs behind us:) It was good. We went the opposite way around the trail this time, so I think the hills were a lot harder this way! It sucked!! But I burned a pretty good amount of calories. Too bad I ruined that later!

My parent's 32nd wedding anniversary was October 6th, and ours being on the 22nd, we decided to go out to dinner together. Roch and Rayna also tagged along:) We went to Hunan Treasure, a Chinese restaurant by my parents house. It was good... but definitely not as good as our Chinese place, Mandarin House. That place is seriously the best!! Nothing can compare!!!

We had a nice time though, and I enjoyed having quality family time. I definitely don't see my family as much as I used to, now that I don't live at home... obviously. We're not that far, but I guess I can just be lazy sometimes. But hey, cars work both ways!! lol... if that even made sense. I wish we had an actual dinning room so that I could make dinner and invite my family over, but alas, I don't!

All in all it was a really good weekend. I had such a fun time with my husband and we really loved DC! I definitely want to go out in DC again with friends or something. There's so many bars and restaurants to go to! It will take a couple trips to cover them all.

I can't believe a year has already passed since we got married. It's crazy. I do want to have kids soon, but first I have to work on my job situation. If I can get the job as a paid firefighter/EMT, do that for a year or so until I feel settled, then maybe we'll start trying for kids. But for now, I'm just enjoying being carefree and having the freedom to do whatever I want. Not only that, but enjoying my new found hot body!! I love it, and I don't want to get fat again any time soon!!

Oh, on Friday, I got this tattoo as a surprise anniversary present to Charlie. I revealed it to him by saying "I have this rash on my side, can you look at it?" Then I showed him and he was shocked! He asked if it was real and then stared at it in shock for about 5 minutes straight! lol Too funny...

I love you Charlie LaGrave!!!!<3<3<3

Goodbye Ass

Just wanted to write a quick, entertaining blog. It's quite sad actually. But I guess it's still an accomplishment...

I tried on a pair of old jeans today (size 16, currently size 11/13). They were more like jeggings. They fit snug on my thighs and legs, but my butt? Yeah... not so much. *cries* Gahhhh!!! I had to really hike them up there to make them fit, too! lol! Oh well... I can't be picky about where I lose weight. Guess I need to start gettin on those squats!

Yes, this looks pretty retarded. It's loose in the back!!!

Think I could make a new style? The "rolled down" look? Maybe...?

I think it's pretty trendy!:) Ignore the line on my stomach, it's from the compression shorts I was wearing! Dang, can't believe that's my stomach! What what!;-)

Ok, that's all! Hope I made someone laugh.......!! Hehehe:) Have a great day!!

Anna

I Can Do This On My Own

I think this will be my first blog without a picture. I just can't think of anything good. And I don't have much motivation to look for one, sorry.

Ok, so let's recap on what's been happening. It's been a pretty eventful past week! Thursday was Fat Daddy's with Sam, Friday was McVey's farewell party, Saturday was the CPAT, Sunday morning I did Kickboxing and the elliptical with Caitlin, then worked that night. At work, my right shoulder was really sore, and I was kinda confused why. I really didn't feel like I strained it during kickboxing. The class was mostly light punching and light weights. I thought it could've been from the CPAT too. That vest will seriously make you sore!

Monday morning I got home from work and was feeling ok, went to sleep cuz I had to work that night, and then woke up at 3:00pm to workout. When I got up, I did not feel good. My whole body was sore, my throat was sore, and I just felt weird. I decided I was not going to workout and went back to sleep till 4:45pm. When I woke up again, I still felt the same. I ate, took a shower and got ready for work. I really didn't even think I was getting sick. Just thought I was super sore.

On my way in to work, I gradually just felt worse and worse. I was hot, tired, light headed, just miserable!!! I knew I wouldn't last long at work! I got there and immediately sat down. I sat there just thinking how long I could tough it out. Not long! I went to talk to Allison and she made me take my temperature lol. It was 100.8! Ughhh. I showed the Charge Nurse and she said "Go home." lol. So I left work... at 8:15pm.

Fast forward to today, and I'm still sick!! My temp has been between 99.5 and 101.1. I've been waking up in the middle of the night, drenched in sweat, but then I get too cold when I take the covers off. It sucks!! I thought I was starting to feel a little better today, but when I went to heat up my soup, I almost threw up. I felt so nauseous! I dunno what happened, but my face turned completely pale and I just felt so sick. It sucked.

Anyways, enough about me being sick! In other news, I've decided on a new challenge. Since I'm not doing the biggest loser again, I decided to not weigh myself for a month. Yes, a whole month! It's gonna be really tough, but I think it will be good for me! That way I'm not constantly worrying about what I weigh. It's good for me to have that there, to keep me disciplined, but I need to learn how to live this lifestyle on my own, without certain things keeping me in check. Plus, it'll be exciting if I see a really big loss!

Ugh... I'm having a hot flash as we speak. This sucks:( I don't wanna go through menopause if this is what it feels like!

So the next weigh in you'll get from me will be on 11/5/11! That doesn't mean I won't update in between now and then, in case you were wondering:) Unless I'm really busy or something. Which could be true actually, I have a lot of stuff to do this month! Fun things though!!:)

I know everyone says you can't get the flu from the flu shot, but I'm still skeptical. What do you all think? I got it one week, then got sick the next week. Could it really just be a coincidence? Hmmm...

Alrighty... time to lay on the couch and sulk the rest of the day. I really hope I feel better soon! It's so hard not being able to work out!! I feel so guilty when I don't exercise:( *cries*

Thanks for reading:)

Anna

Moving On

"Everyone can think of the one thing that would make life better for them. But people are not so quick to answer the second question: 'What are you doing to make that change come true?'."



10.6.11

With the biggest loser ending last week, I was faced with the decision to participate in the next round or not. At first I definitely knew I wanted to do it. I like the fact that it keeps me motivated and held accountable for my weigh ins and what not. But then I started to think about it more.



I'm really close to my goal and I pretty much lose 1 - 1.8 pounds a week. In the beginning I was losing 4, 5 or 6 pounds a week! It was easy for me to win and I loved that. Now that I barely lose anything a week, there's really no chance of me winning anymore. Not that that's the only thing that matters to me! That's not it all all. I just honestly don't want to spend $50 knowing that I definitely won't win again.



I also need to see how well I can do on my own, without the Biggest Loser holding me accountable. I will probably still weigh in at work, just because I've been going off of that scale this whole time, but my weigh ins won't be for some competition anymore.



I can't be thankful enough for the people at my work who decided to start up the Biggest Loser. It was honestly a life changing experience for me. I don't really know where I'd be if they had never done it!



It really wasn't just losing weight. I've fallen in love with fitness, I choose to eat healthier things (most of the time) now, I am doing things that I used to tell myself "I'll never be able to do that" and I'm loving every minute of it. I can't imagine ever going back to my old self, and I don't ever plan on doing so.



So, here's my first "Weigh In" after the Biggest Loser was over. I went in there, by myself, and weighed in. Obviously I'm not going to lie about my weight, because that would just be lying to myself. Here's what I got!



Previous Weight - 163



Current Weight - 161.6



Weight Lost - 1.4 Pounds



Total Weight Lost - 69.8 Pounds



Wow... so close to 70! I can taste it!!:) I shouldn't say that, considering I ate horribly this past weekend, I'll probably gain next time I weigh in! lol... I hope not! But we'll see!



My ultimate goal is 150. I can't believe I'm almost there. I used to dream of going to sleep and waking up skinny, and to be honest, that's kinda how this whole journey has felt! It's gone by way faster than I thought it would have, and sometimes I wonder if it is a dream! When I walk by a mirror and see myself, sometimes I have to do a double take. It's truly a great feeling. I just can't wait to get to 150!! I hope to be there by the end of the year!



Lately I've been kind of annoyed with people's attitudes towards my weight loss. The majority of people are super happy for me and they say I look great. But, there are a few people who seem to think I'm "anorexic." Really?? I'm sorry, but I don't believe 161 pounds at 5'5 is anorexic. And by the way, I do eat! Quite a bit actually. I wear medium shirts and size 11/13 jeans. I would not consider that anorexic.



I'm just in shock when some people have the nerve to say things like "Don't get too skinny!" "You're gonna look like a bobble head!" "You're wasting away" etc. etc. No, sorry... I actually busted my ass to get where I am. I'm not wasting away, I'm eating right and working out every day. Sorry that I want to be in the "healthy" BMI range! And it's also funny when people say "Oh my God, you're so skinny! Not that you were fat before, but wow! You look great" Ok, seriously, don't lie. I'm not stupid. Obviously if I'm skinny now, I was fat before! 231.4 pounds is FAT. And I'm not ashamed to say that. I called myself fat all the time. I know I was! So don't try to lie. Just say it!



Most of those comments I attribute to jealousy. Not to be cocky, but it's kind of obvious when you see the people making those kind of comments. But it doesn't bother me much. I know what I'm doing and I know that I'm not too skinny! So thanks haters:-)



Well, besides that, not much going on. Oh, yes, wait! I passed the CPAT! Woo hoo!! So happy I was able to accomplish that. It makes me feel like I can do anything now! Definitely one of the hardest things I've ever done!! I'm so glad it's over with! lol.



OMG... so I've gone to Lifetime Fitness with Sam and Caitlin two times now. We did Strictly Strength, Spinning and Kickboxing Interval. Such fun classes. I'm totally hooked and need to join ASAP. It's seriously the nicest gym ever and I HAVE to go there more!! I love it!:)



Ok, I'm done ranting. I'll try to update after I weigh myself on Thursday. Thanks to anyone who still reads this:) Love you guys!



<333



Anna

Warrior Dash 10.1.11

OMG! So... Warrior Dash was probably THE funnest thing I have ever done!! What a great time!!

We left Friday around 5:30pm. Traffic was okay in the beginning. Once we got to Virginia, it started to suck... terribly! We were barely moving at all. Eventually it turned out there was a big RV broken down in the middle of the highway!! That slowed traffic down so much, but even after we passed it, traffic still kinda sucked.

We ended up getting there at about 9ish. Can't quite remember. But it was way later than the GPS said we would!!

The first thing we did was go to WAWA, which conveniently happened to be in the same parking lot as the hotel! Woo hoo! The hotel was very nice!! It had a bar and all types of food. Kind of like how Starbucks has pastries, salads, sandwiches, etc. It was cool!

We ate in the room and then watched some TV. We all tried to go to sleep around 11:00pm. We all pretty much fell asleep right away, but then me, my sister and Amy all woke up around 2:00am and couldn't get back to sleep! It was awful. Lucky Sam slept the whole night! lol:)

We woke up at 6:30am, got dressed and went downstairs for the continental breakfast! Mmm! It was REALLY good! Especially for being a hotel breakfast. They had mixed fruit, grapefruit, yogurt, cereals, milk, orange juice, bagels, English muffins, toast, banana nut muffins, etc. So delicious. I definitely ate more than I should have, but I couldn't pass up free breakfast!! lol:)

We all walked outside and were shocked by how cold it was!! And it was sprinkling too! It sucked because we didn't have jackets to wear. We weren't expecting the weather to be like this, I guess! Oops:)

Warrior Dash was about 20 minutes away at this big farm plantation place. It was a long dirt road to get there, and we parked in a corn field! lol.

We made our way down to the packet pick up. Got our bibs, shirts and warrior helmets! Then we checked our bags in and got prepared!!

We had to stand around for a little while, waiting for our wave to start at 9:00am. It was freezing cold!! And it started to rain a little harder. The only thing that helped was moving all around!! Jumping jacks, butt kicks, etc.

There were lots of interesting costumes there! We saw zombies, Mario, pigs, Darth Vader, and guys in full on suits! lol! It was hilarious the stuff that people ran in! I dunno how they did it!

Finally the race started and we were off!! The path was a mix of gravel, dirt, big rocks, and mud!! At first it was pretty dry. Then we started to come up on big puddles and thick mud. We tried to avoid it when we could, but there were certain times you just had to run through it!

The beginning was just a long run, I'd say about 1 mile. We were running through the woods... uphill, downhill, through a field, then we came up on our first obstacle, Barricade Breakdown. Walls and barbed wire. You had to crawl under the wall of barbed wire, then jump over the (I'd say) 4 foot walls. Of course Sam got stuck on the first set of barbed wire! lol. That was rescue Sam number 1!

While we were running to our next obstacle, Sam twisted her ankle!:( It actually hurt her pretty bad, so we started walking for a little bit. My sister also needed a little break. She doesn't run like the rest of us do, so it was definitely a challenge for her! It also hurts her hip when she runs, but she really toughed it out! I was so proud!:)

The next obstacle was the Rubber Ricochet. It was just a bunch of big tires, tied to ropes, swinging all around. It wasn't too bad, as long as the person in front of you didn't push the tires too hard and make them fall back on you!

Next was Road Rage. First you had to step through a bunch of tires that were lying flat on the ground. Then there was about 6 cars all next to each other. They were cut up, smashed, and mangled. You had to crawl over top of them to get to the next set of tires on the ground. It was pretty difficult!! Especially because they had muddy water on top of them, which made it really slippery. Some even had sun roofs that were open, and one car had a trunk that wouldn't stay closed! Apparently Sam belly flopped onto one of the cars! LOL! Oh Sam...

After that was Chaotic Crossover. A flat cargo net that you had to crawl across. It really wasn't too bad,  if you used the right strategy! Me and Roch got across really fast! You basically had to stand on the ropes and lean to one side, instead of crawling like a spider.

Next was my favorite one and our real first taste of the mud! Dead weight Drifter! It was this gross little pond, stream thing, with floating logs in it! You had to go into the water, which you couldn't even touch the bottom of at one point, and climb over the logs. Of course right as we stepped into the muddy water, Sam's shoe gets stuck! (Sam Rescue number 2!) She also pulled down Amy in the process lol! Once we finally got up, we see Amy's feet up in the air, falling back into the water lol. She was on top of the log, then some girl rolled it towards her, causing Amy to fall off.

The best strategy was to superman dive right over the logs! Your face would end up in the gross water, but oh well! My bib also got torn off, luckily one pin held it on! That was definitely a fun one!

Teetering Traverse was the next one. Easy! All you had to do was go up, across, and down these skinny planks of wood with notches in them. It wasn't bad at all. I felt like I flew across that one!

Deadman's Drop. This one sucked! It was like a big ladder you had to climb, with a big hurdle to get over at the top. The wall was kind of slanted too, which made getting over it really hard. Once you did get over the top, there was one more step, then a straight drop down! Really scary!! I don't like heights that much, so it was pretty tough to slide down!

The Great Warrior Wall was the one we were most worried about. It was a tall wall. Straight up and down. With tiny little ledges to put your feet on, and a rope to pull yourself up! I was surprised I could do it! It wasn't too bad, except for the rope really hurt your hands. It was so rough!

Once you climbed down from that, you had to wade through water. I just googled it, and it was called the "Tar Bay" which runs off of the Chesapeake Bay. The water was about thigh deep, and surprisingly warm! That part was easy:)

We were nearing the end! I knew because we could hear the music coming from the main stage. The next thing was Cargo Climb. A bigggg cargo net that you just had to climb over and down. Not really hard at all! Just tall!

Once we all grouped up at the bottom of that, we decided to all hold hands and jump over the two fire pits at the same time! lol! It was so fun. Not difficult at all! The fire felt pretty good, actually!:)

The final obstacle! Muddy Mayhem!! The dirtiest of them all. You step into a shallow pit of mud, and crawl/float under barbed wire. Sam stepped into it and right away her foot got stuck in the mud! lol. I sat there trying to pull her out, while people yelled "Pull!!" "No man left behind" lol!! Eventually we freed Sam, and continued on. All finally crossing the finish line! Yay:)

It was such an amazing, fun time!! I cannot wait to do it again!! And, lucky us, we get free registration for the next race!! Last minute they informed us they couldn't serve alcohol at the race, so they waived the parking free and gave us all a free race:) Sweet! We're definitely going to the one in Maryland, in May 2012!

Well, that's my long blog for the night!! I'm not sure if we're doing a Biggest Loser again or not! But I suppose I'll just weigh in this week at work, anyways:)

Thanks for reading!!!

Anna